it's not unusual

inside of two weeks i really have let things get away from me. pretty much everyone i love has become estranged, and i know why. the question remains what to do about it. i'm not nearly stressed out or as anxious as i should or have a right to be considering the state of things. i think about each of you often and yet i can't summon the courage to let you know. i don't know what i can do to change that other than try to get my life back together, but the charade has become too obvious. my life has NEVER been together. i feel exposed. my life is a sham and two weeks is an eternity. without you i am nothing.